Yesterday, I ran my first 5k, a bucket list item that I never thought possible especially since I spent most of my adult life overweight. This morning as I reflect on yesterday, I started to think about what it feltlike to begin my health and wellness transformation. When I started my initial wellness transformation running a 5k wasn't even on my radar. But now, I can completely compare running a 5k to starting a lifestyle overhaul.
When you sign up for the race (aka decide to get healthy) and then find yourself amp'd and ready to go. You might even have friends or family who join you in the this transformation. Allow me to add a bit of caution: Don't enroll in a health or wellness program "just" because you feel baited or cornered by someone else and on the flip side don't pull any unwilling participants along with you. It will drag you down like cinderblocks if you aren't careful. You have to be IN THIS FOR YOU AND NO ONE ELSE!
At first you are surrounded at the starting line with others who on the same or similar journey, you are one in a sea of many and then the gun fires and your off. At some point you'll be within the pack and in the next second you may start to feel alone as the pack thins while some speed ahead and others begin to trail behind.
During a left hand turn in yesterdays race, I saw the biggest hill of my life and started to ask myself "What in the hell did I get myself into?" A question I've asked myself more than once in this journey. It was in the this moment that I connected all of the dots in my life.
None of us are immune to highs and lows. But we all have the option of QUITTING or GOING ALL IN!
We are going to face moments of highs - that are filled with pounds lost, non-scale victories, running races and completing challenges.
But with every high there will be a low leading into a valley when you become sick, miss workouts, life gets in the way, or we lose interest in our workouts or preferred style of eating.
The rebuild is the hill - The hill with a steep grade that makes you question your drive, your motivation, your will- it's in those moments of the run or transformation that we need to grit our teeth and dig our heels in.
There will be twists and turns when we fail to be clear in goals and vision. This will be water stations along the way - allowing for a momentary pause to regroup and recenter ourselves. As we see the finish line our push becomes harder and we tap into our reserve, and give it all we've f-ing got. (plot twist: in a wellness journey there will NEVER be a finish line)
And once we cross the line - we'll realize none of what we've gone through is as bad as we thought it would be. It's in that moment that we realize we want to do it again!
I wasn't the fastest in this race nor was I the slowest - I didn't race the person instead I ran my race at my pace that was in exact proportion of the training and effort I had put in leading up to yesterday.
Don't be discouraged as you go through journey or become wrapped up by "success" of the person next to you. Remember to run your race at your pace. I too, have gotten discouraged by watching fellow youtubers, social media influencers, friends and family members in their success feeling that I didn't measure up, yet yesterday reminded me that each of us are in our own race and we can't let anyone else dictate our pace.
For the record: My goal was to finish the race in under 45 minutes. My fitbit tracked me at just over 43 minutes and today I looked at the official results and I came in at 42 minutes and 2 seconds. Sometimes you even surprise yourself