I've been thinking a lot about why I fell off the health train as hard as I did and what I need to do in order to find balance once again.
We all have a WHY. It's what drives us in our career, relationships, hobbies and health. When your WHY is greater than your excuses it's often hard to give up your WHY, but it's not foolproof.
My WHY for "attempting" to become healthier began years ago when my grandmother was diagnosed with Type II Diabetes, sadly I didn't take my health or obesity as serious as I should have.
An actual health scare should have put me on the right path, but it didn't. Instead, I had finally grown tired of being the fat girl in the back row or sick of attempting to diffuse my weight gain with an oversized handbag.
The first 60 pounds shed with relative ease, it's been the last 15 - 20 that have caused me to yo-yo, binge eat, and throw in the towel more than a handful of times. To become recommitted to my WHY, I had to change the dialogue with myself. I am no longer interested in losing weight or inches to step out of the back row, instead I want to be in the best shape of my life to simply be in the best shape of my life, but also shed the excuses I've been carting around.
Here's to a brand new chapter, a brand new set of goals, and a brand new WHY and feeling incredibly confident with bangs and red lipstick!